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I allow the perception of having been disrespected to anger me.
I wish I didn't, but as it is, I see this: people scr*wing me over, then getting to walk away having 'got the last word', too.
'...get on with our lives' - from an e-mail sent to me via one person's account, someone I was willing to speak very briefly with, but actually, once already read, found to be from someone else to whom I'd made it CRYSTAL CLEAR (or so I thought) that she should not even contact me ever again.
To me right now that e-mail = 'I came, I saw, I used, I discarded (the friendship). Byeeeee, SUCKER!'
And the only thing I can do is sit here and feel the loss again after this reminder, the pain of ever having had to deal with their SH*T, all the time wasted, and vow NEVER to let them near me AGAIN in any way. This or any other life.
'Acceptance' of what happened = FEEL THE HURT. FEELITFEELITFEELIT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL IT.
Well EXCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSE ME for being less than thrilled about it.
Yeah, yeah, sure; I know to stay away from that person/people now. DUHHHH.
After HOW many months of Angst that it took me to 'accept' it?
You know what I 'learned' from this? That I refuse to see the 'writing on the wall' for ages.... that I cling the most to the people who are ultimately bad for me...
...that I got hurt from a scuttled friendship... because I was a Fool.
Yeah, Sure. I'm through.
Until the next G*DAMMNED LEARNING EXPERIENCE.
Gee; who or what will it be next time?
You know, it's so Fun to have something to look forward to...!!!
I wish I didn't, but as it is, I see this: people scr*wing me over, then getting to walk away having 'got the last word', too.
'...get on with our lives' - from an e-mail sent to me via one person's account, someone I was willing to speak very briefly with, but actually, once already read, found to be from someone else to whom I'd made it CRYSTAL CLEAR (or so I thought) that she should not even contact me ever again.
To me right now that e-mail = 'I came, I saw, I used, I discarded (the friendship). Byeeeee, SUCKER!'
And the only thing I can do is sit here and feel the loss again after this reminder, the pain of ever having had to deal with their SH*T, all the time wasted, and vow NEVER to let them near me AGAIN in any way. This or any other life.
'Acceptance' of what happened = FEEL THE HURT. FEELITFEELITFEELIT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL IT.
Well EXCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSE ME for being less than thrilled about it.
Yeah, yeah, sure; I know to stay away from that person/people now. DUHHHH.
After HOW many months of Angst that it took me to 'accept' it?
You know what I 'learned' from this? That I refuse to see the 'writing on the wall' for ages.... that I cling the most to the people who are ultimately bad for me...
...that I got hurt from a scuttled friendship... because I was a Fool.
Yeah, Sure. I'm through.
Until the next G*DAMMNED LEARNING EXPERIENCE.
Gee; who or what will it be next time?
You know, it's so Fun to have something to look forward to...!!!
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this eerily struck me... as me.
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I'm too trusting again with people online and offline and always seem to come out hurt and feeling like an idiot
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1) One the one hand, you have the people who can dish out the hurt but they can't take it. 2) On the other, you have the people who struggle (sometimes even successfully) to deal with the hurt that's dished out and rarely if *ever* retaliate or respond in kind.
I much prefer to deal with people in category 2, which is where I place you. *hug*