...when we look at ourselves, and get a glimpse of what we really are about, as opposed to what we hope those around us see us as...

And how angry we get, when those around us indicate that they see us as rather different than we want ourselves to be seen as.

For instance, I've had to own up over the past couple of days to my own financial incompetence... my only hope, after this ego-(or should I say denial)-deflation being that if I understand how I got in this fix...I can probably figure out how to get myself out of it. And not repeat the behavior forever.

Christ, I'm such a slow learner.

God knows my folks have scolded me enough times in the past for similar behavior... and the other day I didn't even need them to point anything out... had to admit it to myself. And part of my problem, that helped cause this all...was not keeping track of certain stuff...

...because to think about the situation made me uncomfortable. So I just friggin' Avoided dealing with it.

So now I know...that Avoidance...is a really expensive way of doing things.

F*cking-Hurray.
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