Well, that was fun...not

[kalibex]

Finally bit the bullet and e-mailed the two places I'd interviewd for jobs at thus far to ask what the deal was after not hearing from them, as a couple of people had told me I really ought to do that.

Just got back the first rejection notice ('I regret to inform you...etc etc').

And basically, it feels just as unpleasant as I figured it would. Here; not enough that you obviously didn't make the final cut, HERE, have an in-your-face rejection to boot!

I'm just mad at myself. I KNEW this wou ld happen. I KNEW it would feel this bad. I KNEW I already saw the writing on the wall, so why belabour the point? So why don't I trust my OWN intuition about this sort of thing? Why did I let other people influence me into doing something I KNEW would be a mistake?

Well, now, because I'm a Fool, that's why. With some kind of masochistic streak.

Go me.

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[(Anonymous)]

No, no, no, no NO. Yes the pain, yes the anger, yes the feeling of rejection... But no, you are *not* a fool, and you are *not* belabouring the point. You deserve an answer if you haven't been given one, and you can't just assume that the answer is "no".

Again I'm telling you to do something I never quite got the hang of in my own life. But I'm saying it because the alternative doesn't work; I know that, believe me, I know. You're going to feel rejected, you're going to feel rotten, you're going to feel lousy -- write it out. Scream and shout it out, kick toy kittens if you have to, and then go back and do it again, and whatever you do DON'T SETTLE. You are worth more than that.

- Cameron