You know how some people will admit that they're anxious that despite functioning in the world as competent adults, they'll somehow be found out as 'fakers', as the 'frauds' they fear they are?
Imagine if that actually started to happen to yo u. If that fear actually started coming true. If the people around you started to point out how you were not fulfilling your adult duties...
...and you saw that it was apparently...True.
That's what's been happening to me, the past couple of years...and especially this year.
And most especially now.
I just don't quite understand what happened...
...but I'm sure that in the end, it's my fault.
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Snails and Puppgy Dog Tails...
In a way, I wish you'd been around last night. You could have stopped me from becoming a helpless puddle by kicking my ass into next Thursday. :/
Look, you're doing the best you can in a difficult situation. I know your last job was wearing on you. I wish you'd had the strength to muddle through until a job came along, but what would have been the point if you'd been ground down into the dirt by the time your first interview rolled around. Frankly, I don't think you could have managed to put on a good face at an interview while still working in that place.
You're a strong person, Bex, I know that. You'll find something or you'll find a way to sustain yourself until a better job comes along. If I could pay you full-time to kick my ass everyday, I'd do it. :)
C'mon, where's that indomitable Dowgiert spirit? Hmm?
Hey! Put down that snail when I'm talkin' to you, sister! ;)
*back pats*
Now get back in there and show 'em what yer made of, 'k?
-/\/
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you are not a fraud....anxiety is a run away train it'll make you think and believe anything
don't let it control one inch of your life
*HUGS!*
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And when all else fails, sublimate, girl! I know you can write something *really* depressing if you try! :)
- Cameron