I'm getting to see how I handle my emotions while under a large amount of stress...and am proving to be spectacularly good at f*cking relationships up...well, a relationship which might have had a teeny-tiny chance of revival.
To me, the price was too high. Make some sort of admission that the fault for the estrangement had been all mine.
Sorry; I will not live a lie.
And if it was true...why bother admitting anything?
If one is to play the villain's part...go all the way!!