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Something that in the end was probably a practice or game of 'keep away', but something I took seriously enough to get upset over it at times. With a small group of people, acting against another group of 'antagonsists' who were trying to get several pie ces of equipment away from us. Almost a 'steampunk' feel to the scenario. Gentlemanly villains, but villains just the same. Subtle sneering and satisfaction (so hard to bear!) when they succeeded in getting items away from us. We kept the advantage for most of this 'game'; even though they seemed to get more and more of the 'equipment', we still had this tube-shaped thing (might have been a flashlight for all I know) which I'd decided was the crucial item that couldn't be lost. Might even have been 'my' item to preserve.
So of course they eventually got that item, too. After which I was quite crushed, over having 'failed'.
However, an authoritorial female from our group seemed to want me accompany her into the house that was involved in these pr oceedings, so I did... whereapon she demonstrated as she found out where the antagonists had hidden the tube-thing - wrapped up and hidden in dishtowels or something, guarded by a woman from their group. It was as if finding it gave us the right to take it back or something. So I felt better.
I'm, like, seeing what I was as a kid again...the type of things that upset me, what I liked...and it is SO frikkin' WEIRD. This is almost like experienceing a '2nd childhood' in my dreamtime. Very very Weird.
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Was on the grounds of where I grew up; felt again that I was in some contest or competition against someone. Got it in my head that this was a Doctor Who-themed adventure. Not sure whether I thought I was the Doctor, was with the Doctor, was going to mee t up with him soon, or what. This one wasn't very clear. It's almost, in retrospect...as if someone said , in effect, 'Let's play Doctor Who', and I immediately got into it...then had my motivation and focus dribble away, until I didn't know WTF I was sup posed to be doing.
I was by myself, wandered out into our backyard a bit... feeling there was something I had to do as part of the above scenario (what I was so worried about escapes me now). I wandered down to where we used to keep a chicken coop, expecting certain things to be there. Where there used to be and still is mowed grass was tall, tall grass, almost sedges or an ornamental variety. I pushed through it, worrying mildly about getting ticks from it. I was looking for the little miniature house (actually, a small tiny coop) that had been part of the larger coop, years back, but which was now long gone. I'd used it to play in it, before it was used to house chickens, as it was perfectly playhouse-sized. Only, here, I expected to find a somewhat di fferent tiny building, made of stone, and I was looking for it in the corner of this area (which in mundania has stone walls enclosing it).
The corner where I expected to see the stone house was over-grown; the house apparently thrown down, no longer the re, though there was this little banking as if to indicate something had been there. I was quite disappointed at this.
I wandered back towards the house, thinking or wondering about a cat at one point. I may have then seen a cat or even a girl, someone w ho may have been part of the DW scenario.
The next bit was I think a continuation from this - I was inside the house, with people hanging around. A trip to 'the Middle East' was being planned. Like a diplomatic mission. This brunette young woman was preparing to go, almost like an emmissary. I think I found out I could go, too, and was quite excited, even as I realized it could be dangerous. But more due simply to the unsettled atmosphere of the region we were to visit, not outright hostility towards us per se. All I know is the brunette had a quest to do, was the feeling. Someone attached/hung this crystal heart on me, though partly tucked or hidden under my clothing. I questioned the wisdom of this; might'nt the people we were going to meet with seize it? I was told that no, they'd respect our bringing beautiful things with us, showing off the nice things we had. Almost as if that were a sign of respect to those potential antagonists. I noticed the woman now had a cap on, and I decided she was disguising herself as a boy; doing that to smooth her way, as men are more accepted in the Middle East than women.
So of course they eventually got that item, too. After which I was quite crushed, over having 'failed'.
However, an authoritorial female from our group seemed to want me accompany her into the house that was involved in these pr oceedings, so I did... whereapon she demonstrated as she found out where the antagonists had hidden the tube-thing - wrapped up and hidden in dishtowels or something, guarded by a woman from their group. It was as if finding it gave us the right to take it back or something. So I felt better.
I'm, like, seeing what I was as a kid again...the type of things that upset me, what I liked...and it is SO frikkin' WEIRD. This is almost like experienceing a '2nd childhood' in my dreamtime. Very very Weird.
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Was on the grounds of where I grew up; felt again that I was in some contest or competition against someone. Got it in my head that this was a Doctor Who-themed adventure. Not sure whether I thought I was the Doctor, was with the Doctor, was going to mee t up with him soon, or what. This one wasn't very clear. It's almost, in retrospect...as if someone said , in effect, 'Let's play Doctor Who', and I immediately got into it...then had my motivation and focus dribble away, until I didn't know WTF I was sup posed to be doing.
I was by myself, wandered out into our backyard a bit... feeling there was something I had to do as part of the above scenario (what I was so worried about escapes me now). I wandered down to where we used to keep a chicken coop, expecting certain things to be there. Where there used to be and still is mowed grass was tall, tall grass, almost sedges or an ornamental variety. I pushed through it, worrying mildly about getting ticks from it. I was looking for the little miniature house (actually, a small tiny coop) that had been part of the larger coop, years back, but which was now long gone. I'd used it to play in it, before it was used to house chickens, as it was perfectly playhouse-sized. Only, here, I expected to find a somewhat di fferent tiny building, made of stone, and I was looking for it in the corner of this area (which in mundania has stone walls enclosing it).
The corner where I expected to see the stone house was over-grown; the house apparently thrown down, no longer the re, though there was this little banking as if to indicate something had been there. I was quite disappointed at this.
I wandered back towards the house, thinking or wondering about a cat at one point. I may have then seen a cat or even a girl, someone w ho may have been part of the DW scenario.
The next bit was I think a continuation from this - I was inside the house, with people hanging around. A trip to 'the Middle East' was being planned. Like a diplomatic mission. This brunette young woman was preparing to go, almost like an emmissary. I think I found out I could go, too, and was quite excited, even as I realized it could be dangerous. But more due simply to the unsettled atmosphere of the region we were to visit, not outright hostility towards us per se. All I know is the brunette had a quest to do, was the feeling. Someone attached/hung this crystal heart on me, though partly tucked or hidden under my clothing. I questioned the wisdom of this; might'nt the people we were going to meet with seize it? I was told that no, they'd respect our bringing beautiful things with us, showing off the nice things we had. Almost as if that were a sign of respect to those potential antagonists. I noticed the woman now had a cap on, and I decided she was disguising herself as a boy; doing that to smooth her way, as men are more accepted in the Middle East than women.
