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Anxiety dream featuring elements from my past career (and, needless to say, things I never in real life did while I worked in a lab) - I realized I'd left out some radioactive samples on the bench at room temperature overnight...felt horribly Guilty about it, then came in to see that someone had put them on ice for me - the ice was fairly melted by the time I went to see, but at least someone had done the right thing. But it was an example of true negligence, and me not in the end giving enough of a damn about the experiments/project that they were supposed to be used for.
To me this symbolizes me 'not doing the right thing' - and, considering what happened at that last lab job, this also symbolizes to me that I'm ignoring some reality that I find threatening to acknowlege, which is percolating through my subconscious - and may seep up to cause problems (usually via passive agression/depression) - later.
What obvious thing am I Ignoring Right Now, what Truth can I not admit consciously to myself right now???
No EE meditation.
No biphasic sleep - woke early a bit after 4 am for a pit stop and couldn't really get back to sleep - (stress).
About 6 hours sleep. Just like last Sunday-Monday. Will have to go to bed early for the next few days to make up for it. What's with this new 'pattern'?
To me this symbolizes me 'not doing the right thing' - and, considering what happened at that last lab job, this also symbolizes to me that I'm ignoring some reality that I find threatening to acknowlege, which is percolating through my subconscious - and may seep up to cause problems (usually via passive agression/depression) - later.
What obvious thing am I Ignoring Right Now, what Truth can I not admit consciously to myself right now???
No EE meditation.
No biphasic sleep - woke early a bit after 4 am for a pit stop and couldn't really get back to sleep - (stress).
About 6 hours sleep. Just like last Sunday-Monday. Will have to go to bed early for the next few days to make up for it. What's with this new 'pattern'?