DREAMS

A muddle. Woke up feeling run-over by a mack truck (ok, hyperbole). I feel like I stewed in several Guilt-inducing anxieties last night. There was some travelling around, one point where I was in a vehicle with several other people and I thought we were on the way to the airport, but might have aken the wrong turn (and then we either stopped, ran up against a traffic jam, or the cops pulled us over; don't recall exactly). Another where a friend, maybe two, were having a wedding, and I could have but didn't go. I recall crouching on a sidewalk in the hopes of avoiding being seen for as long as possible, near a fence as some friend was approaching. I figured being seen and commented on was inevitable, perhaps some sort of confrontation...but when the p erson passed me....they ignored me utterly. Then I felt Miffed at the snub. I also got some impression that one of the friends getting 'married' kvetched , something in reference to their 'husband' (?), something to the effect of they'd tell him to pick a personality (alter) and then @#$% off. As if he were DID or something. I also was at one point in what I thought was a work situation similar to my last job, and like there, doing a half-assed job. Working at the project, but just not doing it truly effi ciently or correctly. Never quite able to do it right. And I felt all the Guilt and shame I used to, while there.

Itch.

Still got two moderately itchy areas on my palms. Been about 3 days now. Feels like a poison ivy rash, but it seems to be down in the dermis - is not on the skin surface, and no blisters have appeared on the skin.