Begin Again, Finnigan

Climbing back out of that weird place I get in every so often...where my sleep schedule gets shot to hell and my self care slides (care of self and surroundings). I wake up and immmediately hop online, 'running' in that way from something - pr esumably whatever in my reality is stressing me. Sometimes I don't eat for many hours after I wake. Am seeing the correlation now with online time, as I spent literally all evening online yeserday. About 8-9 hours, IIRC. Getting to bed around 3 am. Don't even remember my dreams. All quite disgusting.

They say they who watch much tv (which I don't) or spend time online (which I do) tend to be more depressed - I thought this was due to depressed individuals tending to reach out in an attempt to connect to others in that 'safer' way, but am now intrigued by implications that something about how our eyes watch the screen may literally have an effect on our brains and their chemistry.

Now that I could buy. Will have to find out what's up with that... and in the meantime probably should cut back on my time spent on the computer. If I'm running from something this way...I have to find out what.


Time to stop running.
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