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Dreams 10.11.21

Mon, 11 Oct 2021 14:42:43 GMT

Seemed to be outside, not at any site I recognized, but at some sort of LARP event (or maybe just an outside festival).

I say LARP, though because at one point, some guy up in a 'gunner's nest' either was (or more likely pretended, with sound fx) to start machine gunning the event. I may not have actually been upset in a 'it's real OMG!' way, but I still did the following:

Grabbed some slightly smaller guy, shouted "HUMAN SHIELD!!!" and held him in front of me as I dashed across the open area between the side buildings/booths/etc.

Once on the other side, I must have put the guy down, then proceeded to happily browse around what looked like craft booths...

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Dreams 07.13.21

Tue, 13 Jul 2021 15:12:21 GMT

Morning (after midnight) dreams. Was hanging out with a small group of scions of the Wealthy at some institution of education. Most likely a Uni. This dream might have included that occasional POV confusion of was I watching, or in it?

The group may have been poly, or merely swingers/girlfriend swoppers (wasn't entirely clear). At any rate, there was definitely an impression that this bunch might have been a touch...on the decadent side. Entitled, used to getting their way, not as bothered by conventional standards of behavior.

One fellow suddenly began to try to harass/assault me (in broad daylight, in public, on the grounds of the' campus' — more on the level of 'forcing a kiss'), but as he did so, he didn't at that point appear 'human', maybe moth or butterfly-like, in that there was visually a movement, a 'flutter' of white and red...somethings. Maybe wings. {suspicious sidelong glance}

I wasn't having it, and so, successfully fended him off (possibly merely  waving/flapping hands, swatting him away). Was aware that soon after he was disciplined by the 'school' — something akin to a very large fine (as if this had been improper enough for them to have to do something about it).

Shortly thereafter, I was next to a couple of other people from the group. Another guy (who may have been the highest status) and his girlfriend. They may have been in a car (would have been something like a convertible sportscar, of course). I, (standing next to them?) smirked and opined, "He can afford it."  The fellow, agreed, in an entirely untroubled manner: "Yes, he can."

For my part, I suspect I had merely been annoyed, but was still amused that the other fellow had gotten in trouble, and certainly didn't feel any compunction, as for him... the punishment was just an inconvenience.

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Dreams 05.30.21

Sun, 30 May 2021 23:34:31 GMT

An "At home, but ought to be at (high) school" dream (an on-going anxiety/performance anxiety series). Except, for the first time, I noted to myself that I could drive one of the two cars I have access to, to get there — no need to catch a bus! Was quite chuffed about that.

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Dreams 02.24.2021

Wed, 24 Feb 2021 15:05:59 GMT

Threw my back out last night; it receded enough to be able to sleep (feeling bad again this morning though).

But dreamed of going with a 'college friend' (meaning; the type of pal you hang out a bit with during college but don't stay in touch with after) apparently to her house or apartment, where her mother seemed to be a somewhat stereotypical 'gypsy'. Dark hair, etc. Her mother may have put on a wig or more fancy attire at one point. I think she may have actually had a fortune-telling gig; their place had a room which seemed to be a waiting room/office type are where she would see people.

I found myself alone with her and she seemed to do some 'ritual' type stuff to me. I felt passive, but hopefully it was a 'No, it's fine, I can let her' passivity rather than a 'Not sure I should be letting her do this but I'm letting her do this' type of attitude. Something done down near my waist (chakra-related?), but also henna applied, but seemed to me after as I moved around their place, was not on my hands or face, but upper chest, could see it peeking out a bit near my collar bone area from my shirt. So whoever she was, thinking she was indeed central Asian. Wondering if I was Bruja'd, so to speak...

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Dreams 02.10.21

Wed, 10 Feb 2021 15:32:56 GMT

Interior and exterior urban ramblings. Spent some time inside what seemed to be an historical museum (house). After wandering the downstairs, I made my way up to an upper floor, which I quickly realized was not completely 'finished'; it was work safe/offices/storage, etc., for the historical society people.  I also, oddly, found a small fowl up there, either a young one or a very small one (banty size), which I interacted with a bit, before one of the staff, seemingly amused, retrieved it.

Either Later, outside (or possibly before I saw the 'museum'), was riding public transport, a bus, I guess. We were passing through a nice urban neighborhood. By that I don't mean wealthy necessarily, but a nice-looking area. Probably historic (given the other part of the dream). Just seemed nice, and a pleasant journey.

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Dreams 02.06.21

Sat, 06 Feb 2021 12:01:01 GMT

Interior (and then some exterior) rambling dreams. Wandered a complex; felt as if I were a uni student. Had found an area (not a room but a little nook with a couch near an exterior window) that I felt I could call/claim as my own; but after wandering around and getting lost as I prowled corridors, passing people here and there, was having trouble finding my way back.

At one point seemed to have gone outside, checking out local urban retail. Looked in/near a crowded shop. It felt pharmacy-like, insofar as I label pharmacies as general stores (mores than, say, dollar stores), and many people were moving along in that area. Some kind of festival? Several unattended bunches of balloons seemed to be 'floating out' of the shop, going along, but impression I got is that they were available to take if one wanted, as if used for a festival event but no longer needed; could be taken home. I wanted a bunch; tried to zero in on one, but took my eyes off it for a few moments, and a father with a couple of kids seemed to have taken it instead. There were still some bunches left, but not sure if I ultimately snagged one for myself or not. Think I wanted some for my uni 'room'.

Then as I prepared (as far a I can tell) to return to the 'uni', I realized, with embarrassment, that I had forgotten to wear a mask! Felt terribly awkward and Guilty.

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Dreams 01/17/2021

Sun, 17 Jan 2021 12:53:06 GMT

Early evening dream: Out driving in my hometown, going from one event back to my home to get something; saw a cop with lights on behind, pulled over, thinking it was for me, realized I didn't seem to have my glasses on, figured I'd get dinged for that, but the cop never showed up.

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Was in a schooling/dorm situation. Unfamiliar roommates; at one point was out and about, concerned about getting back in time for classes, etc. Then was back at the dorm, worrying about getting dressed, IIRC.

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Dreams 01/16/2021

Sat, 16 Jan 2021 10:36:23 GMT

Seeming to be in my current home (which is the home I grew up in as a child), yet also seeming to be in a Star Trek: The Original Show situation. I was playing the role of Uhura, yet not quite equal to the task — i.e., I was acutely aware I was supposed to be her, but wasn't her, and did not truly know her job.

I was in a room that  reminded me of one specific room in this house (my brothers' former bedroom), working with a male fellow crew member (not anyone familiar from the show), attending to a fellow federation personnel who had been caught/trapped/hurt by something that happened on this ship. We seemed to be in a Star Trek 'scene', yet it was as if we were also 'playing' at it.

I had apparently been told to hail the Enterprise to request additional crew to  help with this ship but I didn't really know how to operate the equipment in front of me (the first time I tried guessing at what button to press, my hail went out on the ship we were on). Chagrined, I tried another button, hoping it went out this time.  I fumbled with the correct ('official', I guess) words to use.  Trying to remember how she used to to things. I didn't know the name of the ship we were on. (My fellow crew member told me to call it the 'Cranberry Sauce', absolutely as if we were two children playing at Star Trek). I proceeded to o so, glancing at the dark-haired crew member trapped under something to my immediate right, wondering if he were supposed to be a Vulcan or something... "Enteprise, this is Lt. Uhura hailing from the U.S.S. Cranberry Sauce..."  No reply (perhaps I still hadn't done it correctly?) before I woke up.

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Dreams 01/15/2021

Fri, 15 Jan 2021 15:56:33 GMT

Traveling dreams. In one, my dad and I were in separate vehicles, on some form of expressway, but going to the same place, home. I got off at an exit, landing (impossibly, as there is no such exit in reality) right in part of our back yard. I got out, happy to be home, and let my cat (seemed to be Janie, in reality long dead), out of the soft-sided bag/carrier, rather like some reusable shopping bags I have) to walk happily about on the ground. She stopped and rolled in a little grassy depression for a few moments. I was, however, a little perturbed to see that my dad had missed the exit, perhaps going on to Boston.

I spent a little bit of time worrying whether I could contact him (not sure I could get through by phone, for example — in real life, he doesn't use his pay-as-you-go-phone). Fortunately, he showed up in the yard a little bit later, appearing in our driveway in a large SUV/van type vehicle. There were two young blonde ladies up in the front of the van; he'd given them a ride; apparently they lived nearby in town.  They got out and started walking up the road outside our house.

As they left, a young man also was there in the driveway as if he had left the vehicle; not sure what his story was — another ride share, perhaps.  He may have been Black (seemed to have an afro).

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I found myself at IKEA; I again seemed to have my cat with me (here she was walking around), and so was keeping one eye on her to make sure I didn't lose her while out and about.

I was picking up some storage containers (plastic — have been doing so recently in real life), and decided that I ought to get more than one of what I had picked out, so I wouldn't have to keep coming back there so often. (Just as many of us in real life have been learning to make fewer trips during Covid Time.)

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Dreams 12/20/2020

Sun, 20 Dec 2020 15:44:32 GMT

Urban wanderings. An impressions of an urban landscape, with parade activity, possible unpaved streets, and me conversing with some acquaintance (not a known, familiar person). I said some expression, then worried (perhaps in a morally scrupulous kind of way) that it was insensitive to black people. My acquaintance, herself white and young (possibly teen), scoffed at my anxiety/guilt forthwith.

There was a sense of Weirdness in some way — perhaps the sunlight was different? Or something(s) was going on in this urban area, a sense of Happenings?

We parted ways, as either a large wagon loaded with young, uniformed boys (boy scouts?) or maybe they were actually walking, came towards us from a side street (recall unclear), accompanied by a woman (looking Victorian/Edwardian?). Perhaps about to join the main thoroughfare parade?

I apparently then returned to what seemed to be my childhood home, though not identical in all respects. I seemed to be in a bedroom and saw there, reclining (perhaps in a reclining couch by a window?) a person who seemed to be a friend of mine from the state I used to live in for a decade...or in some way reminded me of her.  She may have had a (Covid-era) mask on, and I may have fretted briefly that I may have not been wearing such a mask while out and about, in a 'had I brought the virus home?' way.

Looking out the window, I saw, instead of the snowball bush and lilac tree that's normally there, a blooming large bush/small tree whose blooms reminded me of bright pink magnolias, with that similar, waxy, thick look. I noted something to the effect that they normally bloom in the Spring, but here it was Fall (well, well into Winter here, with the recent Northeast snowstorm). In the dream, no snow on the ground yet.  But again, that sense of 'abnormality/weirdness'.

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Dreams 12/03/2020

Thu, 03 Dec 2020 23:29:03 GMT

Some weird scenario where there was some airlock type of set-up (possibly a portal access), and someone was going to let these fierce wolf-like creatures in; I got the impression (whether rightly or wrongly) that they might kill ya pretty easily; nevertheless, I ended up interacting with one or two of them by going inside. I think it was one adult and a pup; possibly another one was going to be 'let through', perhaps the female/mother?

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Dreams 10/31/2020

Sat, 31 Oct 2020 17:55:59 GMT

Been avolitional about recording any dream recall here (not that I've had much at all, mind, but still, what little scraps I had, no motivation to record).

But this morning at long last, woke from a dream of traveling somewhere outside. There was a large hill (something about the surroundings reminded me of part of the hill in my neighborhood on which a local apple orchard is planted — called Fay Mountain farm) that included some sort of built-in slide structure, down which I slid (in stages). Sort of an escalator-like look at the very bottom. 

NGL; was pretty cool.

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Dreams 08/13/2020

Thu, 13 Aug 2020 11:53:15 GMT

Not much detail; urban (some interiors) wanderings.

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Dreams 07/13/2020

Mon, 13 Jul 2020 17:42:19 GMT

Unpleasant dreams just prior to waking (low blood sugar, maybe?). Apparently observing someone else's travails — at least two people (a male and female) in some vertical tunnel or maybe in an elevator shaft? Atop the elevator car? Wasn't clear. It might be that several others were attempting to climb up to join them. Seemed to see a couple of 'scenes' of one or two attempting it, then failing (and obviously falling and being killed, though 'off screen'). Eg: a scream, suddenly cut off. One of those who'd made it and who were trying to help the others expressing their horror and disappointment. Someone flinching their head away, someone holding up the broken end of a rope. That sort of thing. It was almost a collection of visual film tropes.

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Dreams 06/30/2020

Tue, 30 Jun 2020 14:35:42 GMT

Weird music-mash of Anxiety imagery, I guess, mostly pulled from media/reading before bedtime.

Had that 'am I just seeing or part of this?' POV confusion.

A woman (seemed to be central Asian) was essentially kidnapped (not necessarily literally, maybe more really strong-armed into it) into working in a particular lab, maybe as a grad student or assistant. Or maybe it WAS literal kidnapping; not clear. Akin to becoming enslaved, perhaps like indentured servitude (was reading about that yesterday evening.)

In addition, some really villainous antagonist male sent one woman either in his employ or 'enslaved' to him to deliver some device that had a good chance of killing another guy (who may have been MY boyfriend/fiancé! Don't have one!) This was where the POV confusion set in. This plot may have been an attempt to get rid of anyone who might look for me (i.e., I may have been an 'enslaved' character, too.)

I do know I tried to convince her to turn on the antagonist and NOT do his bidding (or, to technically do it, and thus keep out of trouble, but warn the fiancé so that the operation would be sabotaged, and wouldn't succeed). I also spoke to the antagonist, who may have been the (apparently really autocratic) head of the lab, and told him to his face that the evil plan that he was demanding, was 'nothing'. Note that I wasn't calling HIM 'nothing', but his deeds. I was really Sneering defiantly, though.

Starting to sound (a bit embarrassingly) like a Bollywood thriller.

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Dreams 06/29/2020

Mon, 29 Jun 2020 12:58:41 GMT

Seemed to be caught up being a side character in a Buffy episode. Some other character, first an antagonist (maybe, or maybe I just assumed her to be, since I guess she made me uneasy) then brought on board as one of the 'gang' (not main protagonist, but 'around') seemed to be an 'invisible' character (like one in an actual episode), but not that exact same one. I seemed to have warned 'the gang' about her, whereupon they left en masse to retrieve her.

When they returned and she was then there, I was inside a house, looking out an (open?) window. I may have been trying to open/manipulate it, had a bit of trouble at one point. Anyway, she was outside, dithering about. There was also another person (unknown male) a bit further away, but still 'around'. Both she and I saw something happening at a fence around some (garden?) area. We both saw a chipmunk pop out of a hole near some shrubbery, and immediately after, a (to me, visibly angry or annoyed - not sure why I could detect that as I was a fair distance away, in the house) rabbit. I noted, amused (not sure if just to myself, silently, or to both of us), that the rabbit had just chased the chipmunk out of its burrow, hence its obvious angry attitude.

Then we both also saw a snake, also hanging about in that grass/weeds/small shrubs running along the fence line. Again, I was far enough away so that it was odd that I could see some of the details I became aware of. Did the other women show them to me, or otherwise communicated them? Was my eyesight better? At any rate, we could both see that the snake was a normal, small garden variety snake, not unusually large that I recall. But she had distention near her end. Rightly or wrongly, I took that to mean that she was 'pregnant' - I assumed, about to lay eggs or something.

Noting this, I then joked to the other, formerly 'invisible' and intimidating (to me) woman that she (the snake) 'could go have brunch in Black Rock'. It was a genuine sarky witticism, and we were both amused.

Thing is, the joke I made only makes sense in the context of where I used to live for a decade, isn't even relevant to where I relocated to for the past couple of years.

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Dreams 06/07/2020

Sun, 07 Jun 2020 12:03:59 GMT

Spent time in an interior, where I was wondering briefly if there might be a little corner (like a mini office or even just a cubby) that I might call my own. School or office type feeling. Then I went down lower in the building, looking to ask for help of some kind (don't recall exactly what) from some 'risky' character(s). They reminded me of Marvel 'baddies' - or at least some of the antagonist characters. Potentially (very) dangerous, but if you approached them in the right way, when they were in a good mood...they might help you out. Before I woke, hadn't reached the person(s) I was looking to talk to (we're talking Magneto-type level characters), but one big guy passing in the hall greeted me with some blend of "Haven't seen you in a long time; where/how ya been?" mild affection. So apparently these more risky types 'knew' me, or at least recognized I existed.

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Dreams 06/03/2020

Thu, 04 Jun 2020 12:07:43 GMT

Some classroom setting; I attended a lecture, where the instructor started to talk about a topic, then ran out of time for that session. After an apparent time jump, we were meeting again (the next day?) and the instructor proceeded to call on me to answer a question about yesterday's topic (I guess we were supposed to have researched it?). I hadn't, but recalled what had begun to be said yesterday and was preparing to BS my way through an answer, when I woke up. The topic involved the symbolism of the rose.

(After I woke up enough, you bet your sweet chunk I looked it up for real). It's had many 'meanings', but spiritually it appears to relate to Balance.)

Does that specific 'meaning' have any relevance for me personally? Mayyyybeee.

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Dreams 05/25/2020

Mon, 25 May 2020 12:49:37 GMT

Urban wanderings, partly outside, partly in an interior. Sense of maybe looking for a parking spot at one point, not sure I should park exactly there.(New dream trope label: 'Social Anxiety'). In other words, anxiety about doing the wrong thing and possibly pissing off the neighborhood. Not tribe, because, especially urban, we often don't know them, but can make things miserable if we burn our bridges and alienate them. Sometimes does'nt take much.

At one point, outside, was seeing people getting on urban mass transportation (trolley or commuter train?) Young people may have grabbed onto the outside of a train, maybe via the door handles? They seemed to be taking a chance, hanging on while the streetcar/train started. But may not have been as risky as it looked. Plus, that kind of behavior is a young-person's pastime.

I also wandered an interior, and may have commandeered a bathroom that I wasn't initially given access to (so, may have been in a boarding house type of building). Felt bit naughty and clever. Stopped to check out what I assumed was a closet door, found a wall behind it (as if former storage area walled off, though sloping so that there was a few inches of edge of floor at the bottom, but none at the top).

Additional dreams included feeling 'On the Run' from authorities in an urban setting, perhaps a hotel or other public access building. In that 'stay one step ahead' kind of feeling.

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Dreams 05/23/2020

Sat, 23 May 2020 14:16:47 GMT

Was in an (unrecognized) interior. Had that 'shouldn't be here' sense, that I was trespassing. I accidentally made some mess (perhaps knocked something over), in a cabinet, perhaps a sink or storage cabinet. I was cleaning it up, as if attempting leave things so no one would know I'd been there, when my niece showed up, conversing energetically to me (did this mean i was in her school?)

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Dreams 05/22/2020

Fri, 22 May 2020 15:34:29 GMT

May have been hanging out with a friend; some 'somebody' character - as in high-status, maybe an Elon-Musk-level type - seemed very amused by something I said (found it funny), and briefly flung his arms around me (and partly my friend with whom I'd been interacting with). Then he swanned off.

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Dreams 05/20/2020

Thu, 21 May 2020 01:05:44 GMT

One of those POV-confusion (was I involved or just observing?) dreams. Some guys who were good friends were quite chuffed about a (Christmas?) ornament they'd had made, commemorating said friendship - a large, metal plaque type, with a name on each side. It was way too large for the usual size Christmas tree.

Probably related, though maybe a different 'scene', was a sense of hearing someone explain some of the custom/etiquette of gift-giving to another person. One person wanted to send Christmas gift, but perhaps not at the right time. Someone was trying to get across that it was normally supposed to be given on or before the day itself. (My family's custom; not a universal rule, mind. There was a falling -out in my family way in the past, due to late Christmas gifts, with it being assumed it had been a deliberate slight, which may be where this element came from.)

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Dreams 05/09/2020

Sat, 09 May 2020 10:36:16 GMT

One of those scenarios where I seemed to be in my childhood house in the dining room, yet also in some story line from a favorite TV program, in this case Blake's Seven.

I was sat at one end of the dining room table, with some guy (a stranger to me) and some companion or a friend of his being set at the other end, but with one seeming to be clinging to the othe,r as if in distress or fear. I got that after some event or operation, people were being teleported back up to the Liberator, but not necessarily everyone. Hence the distress of the people across from me. Perhaps there was a dangerous situation occurring and those left behind would be dead meat.

At any rate, Vila suddenly walked up to me and slipped some kind of marker (it was rectangular, with a little rectangular handle/tab sticking out of it, and some sort of sticky surface) on the back of one of my hands. This, rather than a bracelet as in the show, was the marker that would allow me to be teleported. I was totally chuffed, to realize I was considered useful or worth bringing up. My dream recall ends as I was apparently being teleported up; I had no view of wherever I was ending up.

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Slightly earlier dream: Seemed to be at a craft fair in some interior, enjoyed looking around. At one table a person whose stuff I really liked was packing up, to my disappointment. But not everyone stays multiple days at a craft fair, or even until the very end of the day. Saw some people who just seemed sat on the floor in an area, around which the tables stood.

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Dreams 04/27/2020

Mon, 27 Apr 2020 19:07:32 GMT

Some interior interactions - seemed to be my current home, and talking to my Dad - except I seemed to be recommending fraud to him! Something to the effect of, "You should try fraud; it's great!" He seemed to be a Grifter type, and I seemed to be encouraging further bad behavior! Well weird.

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Dreams 04/24/2020

Fri, 24 Apr 2020 10:24:03 GMT

Yeah, you'd think I'd have more recalled dreams during a pandemic; nope.

Bad style of Anxiety dream - the 'Forget you have baby to take care of' dream.

Was mucking about in an interior, but I may have been male in this one. Seemed to have two female babies/children (and to know this, and be happy/content about it); but suddenly realized (with a kind of dull horror / confusion) that supposedly I had a male baby, too.

Whom I'd completely 'forgotten' about. He was (probably) in a room somewhere at hime...except I hadn't even thought about him in....weeks? Months?

Surely (if I were the only one responsible for him), he'd starved/died...? How could this have happened / been allowed to happen?

And all I did was think abut how I had better check (as uncomfortable as this all was/would be) when I got home. Not even asking for a reality check instantly.

I Hate this type of dream. I think it's a deep-seated self-accusation of Incompetence, and that I have it when I feel I'm Losing the Thread.

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